There
is a darkness. Can you feel it?
Omnipresence
of
Something, some
force.
The hands,
reaching up from the sides of the bed
When you're
half-sleeping, like a skeleton aching to be free of its skin
Pulling you
down,
Down,
Down.
Sometimes, you
might fight it, and
Awaken,
Gasping and
full of fear.
Sometimes, you
cannot resist it, and
Your resentment
grows
In the darkest
corners of your soul. |
Heiligenschein.
We can save
her
"I think what I’ve decided is that most major events that occur in life work on a level that is beyond one person's ability to change them. It’s like the tides."
"So what's the point of anything? If you can't make a difference in the end? If it is all going to happen in a set order, because if you're from a point forward from where we exist, all of this," I made a sweeping motion with my hand, gesturing towards the darkness outside of the car, "is just a history lesson."
"All of this," she said, mimicking my gesture in a somewhat sarcastic way, "is exactly what the point of everything is!"
"The here and the now?"
"Wherever that might be."
"It seems like a cop out to me. It seems like you should be able to change things. That there isn't just one way that all things can go. Time shouldn't be one string of events leading to another, unchangeable, while we just ride along with it."
"Don’t forget that you're applying human conceptualizations on a universal set of events. Just because something seems like it should be one way or another according to our human perspective of things, doesn't mean that the actual universe operates that way."
"It’s true, we tend to do that, don't we? One of these days we're going to wipe ourselves out because of it," I said.
"Well, it hasn’t happened yet, and until it does, you’re all that matters," she replied, rolling her window down as she did it. The warm, fresh air mixed with the recycled air-conditioned air inside of the car, a miniature weather pattern sorting itself out all around us.
She held her arm out of the window and made music with the wind noise as it blew across her hand. |